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for the last few years theres been only one girl i ever really cared about, i met her in the seventh grade you wounder if it is possible to fall in love in the seventh grade well it is i mean we had the greatest time riting note(something bad ones =) ) we had so much fun trying ot pass notes adn sneak it without teachers finding it i rememebr one time we wrote this bad bad note and the teacher took i up i freaked out if she read that we would be fucked, but no she throw it away so we just rote another one lol,
but at the end of the seventh grade i took the gifted test(not specail ed test) cause my dad never thought i did good enought and my sis was in gifted and my dad was so proud of her so i wanted him ot be proud of me to..... (i got 98)
boy did i fuck up cause i was going to be in the gifted program i need to change school so the struggle for me and megan to say close thind liked a thread. the next years was hell my grades fell everythiign my dad grounded me from everything
heres a list:
tv
computer
playing out side
games of any sort
telephone
drawling
playing wiht sis
radio
gameboy SP
oh yeah my big one training (i gained like 15 lbs)
theres more but i dont want ot put anymore or ill get pissed
but me and megan tryed staying close we barely talked all 8th grade so when i called the next summer alot of she happened
she had went out with two boys (aron and some 7th grader)
but over the period of the summer we got way close
so she invited me to go to wildadventure well that a no brainer of course i wanted to go, so we dicide cause she lived like 50 miles away i would met her father somewhere and he would pick me up and take me to there home,(ok now her father is 13 years in the miltary he has one missing finger and GUNS!, nad he is protective of his daughter)i was very polite.... so when we got to her house i walking side said hello then megan walks out HOT DAMN she was in her bikini that barly covered anything up, nothing left the the imagination it was awesome till i saw her dad staring dead at me. it was freaky so we went up there we had fun on rides holding hands just little stuff then she got a head ache she started crying and her family waslike go ride rides shell be fine i said "its ok" thought"wtf hell no she my girl i am not goin ot leave her". but her haed ache let off alittle so we left it strated to poor i mean bad so we change inside the cars (seperatly damn it) nad she wore a tank top and kapree jogging pants i thought "easy axcess" j/k
i just wore a pair of baggy jeans and shirt, we left and it started to poor worse so you cant hear anything so it was along drive back and we pulled over it was raining so hard.
i am not goin ot tell you what happened on the way home just give hints we had two pillows on our laps you cant see either i hands,
oh Two (1)her head was in the pillow (2)seven alot =)
but after that we talked alot on phone but i mean i havent seen her sense accept for once at the skating ring where i cryed and told her how i felt and how much i missed her boy did i feel like a pussy crying lol
but after things between us seperated i finnally look for some other girl cause by this time i was getting lonely as hell i mean really bad I missed megan alot i mean i couldnt stand it i missed her so much so i hope i can call today and talk i found this poem i thought was awesome:
Missing You
Have you ever bothered to realize
how much you mean to me?
I care so much for you inside
and miss you so deeply.
My mind is always curious about
the way things might have been.
As days go by and time goes by,
I look back once again.
All the time I held you in my arms,
I had the whole world right there.
There you were, comforting me with
all of your charms.
Every little kiss from you
was like a dream come true.
This love that I have inside my heart,
it all belonged to you!
It's funny, all those little things
I never thought I'd miss,
Like all those conversations we had,
or the first time we kissed.
I guess that what I'm trying to say,
is I miss and love you more each day!
It hurts me not to see you,
or not to know if you're ok.
I want you to understand
that I loved you from the start.
And I want you to know,
no matter how many miles
we may be apart,
you'll always hold a special place
in my heart.
if you joke on me about being all girl and not being like a guy(allways wanting sex let me see you in person)
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